Remember me? Brown haired, kinda chatty, loves a cup of coffee?
I've been feeling quite absent recently from blogging for a fair few reasons.
I announced on Twitter that I was going to have a break off social media, but I have now found myself back on it and more motivated than ever to get stuff done and work hard.
For reasons that I will explain below.
So yeah, sorry for the absense but there's a few things I need to update you on:
You might have seen that I have unfortunately suffered the passing of my Grandad.
I'll be honest. The last few weeks have been shit and losing a family member is never nice, but I'm trying to move on and keep busy, as I know its what he would have wanted me to do.
We knew that he was ill only 2 weeks ago and within those two weeks, his health deteriorated and it all happened so quickly. Luckily, I was able to say goodbye to him properly.
But that has been the main reason why I have been quiet and my head has not been in the right place mentally to write blog posts.
It's hit me hard, but I've got to keep going and I have mentioned how writing is so therapeutic to me, so I'm just going to try and take it easy and if I fancy writing, I'll write, but if I don't, I'm not going to put too much pressure on myself.
Oh yeah. That job I mentioned I got which I was really excited about? Yeah... I am no longer working there.
It was all unfortunately bad timing, with everything that was happening at home with my Grandad, plus after the first week, I wasn't feeling 100% sure whether the role was right for me.
And my first day back at work after taking time off to grieve for my Grandad showed me that the role was not right for me, I wasn't getting what I needed out of the role and it was no longer something I wanted to put my energy into as it wasn't making me happy.
And right now, I don't have the energy to meet the demands they were looking for me to fill, as I don't know how long I'm going to need to recover from the loss of my Grandad.
So yeah, I quit. But sometimes, as much as these things sound great at first, they end up not being what you imagined them to be.
But I'm not letting this blip get me down. I know I'll find something bigger and better and I had a gut feeling that this job wasn't what I wanted and in the long run, I know I will have made the right choice.
I need to look after #1 and ultimately, look after my mental health, as I know I would have driven myself mad if I stayed in this job any longer considering the circumstances.
So onwards and upwards...
I have touched on a bit of freelance work, but I never thought it would be something I would rely on.
Since quitting my job, I have somehow, accidentally become freelance. But I don't think that means I'm going to suddenly become a full-time blogger as this is something I have never really aspired to be.
However, I will be trying to fill my time as much as possible by putting all my creative energy into my blog and into finding some freelance clients to work with. I know I have something to offer, so I'm not going to sit around doing nothing whilst I don't have full-time employment.
Alongside, I will be looking for temp work. Whether its for a few days, or its full-time temp work, I think temp work is going to be good for me during this time, as it means I won't be in such a mentally demanding job whilst I am still grieving, as I still need to get my head straight, plus it's something for now to keep me earning money and while I figure out what the next stage is.
As really... I literally have no idea what it is I want to do as a career.
I thought PR was the way forward, but after 4 weeks working in PR, I'm not so sure anymore.
I'm feeling surprisingly positive (despite losing a family member and quitting a full-time job) as I know I won't let this get me down and I am a highly organised, highly motivated person who will find something bigger and better.
This is just a momentary blip in this long thing we call life and I'll find my feet soon!
This is a weird blog post where I have basically shared the fact that I have quit and failed, but its okay, because in the long run, it will be for the best.
I'll be back soon with my usual happy, travel loving, lifestyle chit chat posts soon!
Lots of love x